“…just stop for a moment and listen to me listen that’s all I’m asking nothing more just stop for a moment and listen and let me be clear in saying that I do understand your point you know your point about someone possibly having a wrong premise that is in itself immoral and thereby collapsing any further potential construction I do understand this point I do but what I see is that such a wrong premise could be replaced by a correct premise after some level of hard work some endurance some eager attempt at change and I believe that I can do that yes me I believe I can but first before I even begin to attempt to do this you must understand that an instinct is something you don't need to learn as it happens naturally without even thinking about it and once that is clear you achieve a kind of moral high ground a firm high place in the ladder from which you can’t be removed and yes I do understand what you are getting at with language and definitions but these principles I talk about are transcendent of language as in the way babies cry by instinct it is clear that nobody taught them how to cry what sound to make or the meaning of the sound or what exactly will happen when this sound is produced and nobody taught them what to do when they’re hungry or tired or sleepy or for example the way ducks follow their mother nobody taught them to do that in precisely that way and as I said before I don't know if this is the general scientific consensus or not but one way or another such a consensus would not be relevant to me it would not be relevant to what we have been discussing not from where I’m standing not as I see it because I am not basing my principles on what people in the past have seen or what they have written or what they claim to have determined through slow and methodical study but rather on the fact that animals and humans learn that much is clear and a lot of what they learn may precede any encounter with other animals and humans and I know that if you follow the mainstream at the moment you may not notice this as it is becoming almost invisible and you may never learn that this is the way things are due to this enforced invisibility but I am basing this view of mine on the information provided to me by nature itself and on my own judgment which has never failed me so I can safely and certainly say that there isn't any linguistic learning involved just my own behavior which in itself is pure instinct and thus stands beyond correctness or fallacy such as I can show you exists behind any linguistic principle since once you look carefully within it you will find many logical fallacies and through this application of logic and the discovery of logical problems I can prove anyone wrong anyone and I have to tell you that I do this with well intentioned good people all the time and the truth is that almost everyone is well intentioned at least to some degree but regardless of their intentions I can apply this to any given group and to any individual basically to anyone I encounter and I do this in order to expose them for their immorality for their fallacy for their lack of logic and integrity and I am fully able to do this since just because they have a different definition this doesn't make them unreachable it only means I have to show them why their premises are wrong and empty inside and they are thus ultimately impelled by an inner or animating agency to come to see and understand that very same thing which I already understand as for instance in this situation my instincts come naturally like a baby's desire to feed and to cry when it needs to be fed and I can point out many scientific findings of the nature of organic life across current and obsolete species just as a pack of wolves has principles that can be observed and it can be seen that they largely operate out of instinct infused by mood and by a kind of hidden romance a romance of the collective a romance with the wilderness itself and the result is a complex high functioning dominance hierarchy profoundly imbued with a kind of pre-linguistic behavior that is mediated by reactions below the conscious level and I must remind you once again that I am not basing this principle on what people in the past have seen or said or claimed or preached I am not basing my thoughts on history or books or wild tales instead I am only basing it on the information provided by my own senses and by my own judgment of its correctness or falsity and the largely inherited and yet unalterable tendency of my own organism to make complex and specific responses to environmental stimuli without involving reason without need of language or logic and in this way I can look at the human species and I can disprove every single one of their assertions and I can take any principles that follow from these initial wrong assertions through a natural or inherent aptitude impulse or capacity and then ask why would these wolves defend the weak wolves in their pack without a basic set of instinctual moral principles which emerge without any linguistic teaching at all and that is in essence my argument and I have to tell you that it is only even conceivable to argue against it after the aforementioned bastardizations of said definitions whereupon behaviors become a combination of instinct and learned behavior like language and this new system of language has been extrapolated out of false premises as we can clearly see so I don't need linguistic skills only facts and principle and the road is clear…”
June 1999
“…one more thing I want to make clear is that I understand what you are getting at with language and definitions I see it clearly even as I speak using words and sentences and clusters of words gyrating around each other in structures that may be conceived of as sentences but ultimately the principles to which I refer are transcendent of language or structures or sentences or gyrating semiotic formations and what this means is that this life we live now is unique from all other forms and it does in fact begin at its very biological formation long before language enters the picture and it may be that you are just missing what I am saying because I am forced to use language in order to communicate it to you in order to express this truth to you so I will say it again to make it completely clear as all I'm saying is that these principles are relative to particular definitions that humans have developed using their higher cognitive abilities not through exploring the general consensus of the population but through heavier linguistic restrictions than you may know of as they are older ancient in fact nor by consensus has it been shown that there is definitely only one science since each science is determined through some kind of empirical observation and therefore by extension since language is the only link among them then the dominant language masters must be referred to as the ultimate leaders of the dominant grammar and it is these leaders that determine the meaning of our human life and this is what you are recurrently missing in what I am saying but it will be pretty easy for you to perceive this once you know that the prevailing view on wolf packs is that they consist of large groups of individuals vying with each other for dominance and even though there is a kind of singular and unique life inside each individual member as well as outside of it as it flows through their actions and general behavior the pack still moves by a kind of consensus here where there is definitely only one consensus and there can only ever be one and that’s why we can see a pack of wolves behaving as a single entity and we determine this through much empirical observation and this simple fact should be pretty easy for you to understand specially once you know that I am myself a kind of lesser wolf but still the most dominant among the low ranking wolves and once you know that there is a life inside of me that largely operates out of pure instinct and once you know that this life inside of me is unique from all other forms and the ultimate result within me is a complex high functioning biological system who is therefore me as I understand my own existence and by extension me who talks to you now and those like me who now live in packs do so because cooperation allows them to bring down larger prey and accomplish other such goals which would be impossible for a lone wolf and I can say that this foundational system started before language existed even if it is now expressed through it and this new emergent linguistic system gave my pack an advantage in nature an advantage over others that didn’t have these higher cognitive abilities this ability to flow the past into the future through sound and this allowed us lesser wolves to defend our common territory from others who had very different principles based on very different definitions so in this I ask you why would such a human as myself protect the weak human in the pack if we lacked these instinctual moral principles and you know already that true pack life must insure the care and feeding of the young who are the weakest so if you truly believe in life in all forms and in this unique form most of all then why would the general consensus of your pack be so deeply committed to death so deeply committed to the wastes and the darkness and why would all those other pack members have fallen in between the gaps like weak beautiful flowers plucked from the ground and left to die thus becoming strange exceptions to the rule that the more a pack stands for life the more they would care for the weakest member of the pack weaker even than you may have ever encountered because there are more of our people here right here among us even among the ones you call your own but I'm not trying to convince you of this there would be no use in trying to convince you of anything nor would I even try to say that you're wrong since a true pack hierarchy can only contain one leader and I am not a leader and neither are you so I can only say what I say by observing your own principles which I can't prove or disprove based on logic because the premises are not shared among us and so I can only proceed with caution…”
February 2002
“…and yes the universe did tell me this in such a way as the universe can say anything to anyone anywhere and what I really mean when I say this is that it told me this through my study of the history of language as the primary method of human communication and I learned that language consisted of the use of meaningful forms sequenced in a structured way a particular structure made up of smaller and smaller structures nested within each other and forming phrases and other units of meaning so as I based my principles on what people from the past had left for me I saw that this inherited language originated from ancient emotions and then I ran into some major problems because I had imagined that language had originated from rational and logical thought and I thought I understood the science behind the genesis of life based on these logical thoughts which I saw as foundational but I also saw that there were basic animal instincts that came before language and it was absolutely clear to me that they came before language so humans couldn’t have a basic understanding of life through language because language was limited by its grammatical structure as I previously mentioned and this structure is not an instinct especially when used as a general constructive scheme and so I became in some way opposed to language which I came to see as the cognitive ability to use systems of complex communication and nothing more and I could see that an animal didn't even have a concept of conception and that my particular language was only a very specific example of such a complex linguistic system and then I had a glimpse of a language of languages and this is why I previously made a reference to common sense with an emphasis on the common to explain that all languages must rely on a process of semiosis which relates signs to particular meanings and I am saying this may not be the only way because I think that humans communicate regardless of taught language and that human life is based on a moment of pre-linguistic understanding something that gets covered up through years and years of forgetfulness and neglect and this nonverbal method of expression or communication led me to see that all languages contain a syntactic system for a reason and that this system governs how words are supposed to be combined to form phrases and longer sentences and even paragraphs and such but through my new understanding of instinctive knowledge I came to believe that what truly motivates me is to eat to sustain myself and to find pleasure and to find safety and to seek power and to create forms and shapes that evolve through space and time and this gives me a basic understanding of what life is within me and everywhere around me and as I studied these things and documented them across the animal kingdom I came to understand the general consensus of thought on the matter and I found the position of consensus to be ludicrous because what we are discussing here is whether you believe that human life is a kind of materialized philosophy composed of biological language because I have to remind you we have both observed how life proceeds across species and we have both observed the single shapeless thought as being the true origin of utterances that can be produced through linguistic rules these rules standing as a kind of firmly shaped structure a steel skeleton around an impulse that has no shape formless and infinite life held within a limited system of communication used by a particular group at a particular time and here I saw it becoming the starting point of a new and unique organism a self-conscious form of immaterial life and did the universe tell you this as it told me that it took certain people with a certain secret agenda who had come to this particular conclusion this drastic vision that languages themselves contained an obscure impulse which secretly governed how symbols were meant to be used in order to form sequences and that these certain people wanted to directly manipulate this language and all the rules we used to fit their predetermined functions and it was only then that my eyes opened up to a new function where words would not be used to represent a new kind of experience in regards to life which I now know was nothing more than another manifestation of language so in essence the argument I was using was necessarily morally unacceptable whether it resulted in the killing of a bumble bee or a human and that led me to study the way children learn language a process which I find only barely conceivable as language is a very complex system that consists of the development acquisition and maintenance of materialized symbols and the use of this complex system requires a kind of wild leap into the unknown a leap that can never be reversed a leap which forever transforms these very special dynamic shapes we call human life and this new vision led me to new mutations of single words and sentences and particularly affected my ability to construct them and fit them together in a clear and precise way…”
June 2003
“…did the universe also tell you what it told me then did it tell you some quiet afternoon of daydreaming and wild thoughts and you never filled me in and if you didn’t tell me I can understand as this would be an exception to the rule or maybe very much the one exception to the one rule as this would make it clear between us that words can’t represent experience once and for all and we both know it and we both would know that this is when philosophy is finally understood as purely the study of language and only that and nothing more than that and somehow within that study we are to meant to find what is morally acceptable as if it is written in the sky in the stars in the field of grass on the soil itself and not just a particular definition of what is acceptable that is a particular definition that you happen to be attached to so how can this be a guide or a true moral language built up into a moral and ethical system that looms over multitudes and I must admit that such a discovery would necessarily lead to someone somewhere getting upset and that would be completely unavoidable but ultimately this that I am referring to is no simple bastardization of language instead what I’m talking about are principles rock solid profound and eternal which have led me to understand the science behind life yours and mine and all around and I have arrived here through the understanding of a foundational language that has changed across time and space a dynamic code which refuses to rely on consensus or agreement and since it has always been changing it will always remain beyond the grasp of our most subtle machinery linguistic or otherwise and I know that what I say doesn’t agree with the majority of scientists but this dynamic language of which I speak is a true eternal system and it consists of the development of a complex system of biological communication signifiers coded in blood and entrails which if you believe in life at all if you believe that it originates from something that is not rational or logical then you must arrive with me at a very different definition of life than what is commonly understood life as a pure system of biological communication used by a particular planet just as a flower is a message that gets plucked from the ground and follows its path to a particular receiver which then decodes its hidden message in order to process and respond with a new message and here the general consensus agreement is no longer relevant as our new definition of life is something that lies deep underneath instinct before instinct before genetics of any known kind so it doesn’t matter if it is the general consensus or not it doesn’t matter if the code is clear or in any way understandable since you can experience it directly in the deepest urge to survive and to eat and to fuck and to reproduce and to create and to dance the primal urge to become a particular biological message and to persist and flourish through the depths of future darkness and times unimaginable present even in the smallest gesture or facial expression present even in the flight of a bumble bee or a smiling baby reaching for his mother’s face or any form of mammal life engaged in rituals of survival or even that tiny black ant that you just stepped on it would be in itself a particular message from this living code that is really a not human method of communication from the not human to the not human and this is where our understanding of human life really begins as a kind of superfluous epiphenomenon floating above an ocean of deep and multidimensional language so at this point you should know that this didn't just start to change within me recently even if I can’t say when or where it started nor do I claim it as some kind of true knowledge or even wisdom in some distinct way deeper that what other people's principles are based on but I can say that I have been engaged in a study of the way humans are intrinsically living language and always have been so to be clear humans themselves are a form of language and their own attempts at communication are only a kind of fractal reflection of their own true nature as signifiers in a much larger scheme that we can’t even begin to comprehend and I have come to this conclusion in the same way that I came to understand inherent morality and all the other basic actions and behaviors that could be seen as instincts but now I see as methods of communication and that leads me to use words not in a structured and conventional way but in a different way based on my own new understanding where there is no true language or definition but only a kind of direct action flowing through shapes and forms and structures…”
September 2006
“… I invite you then to study with me the history of language and you'll see just as I did how much it has changed across time and place and here as if I needed to specify I am saying it isn't that humans are the same regardless of taught language but that people's principles circle around a floating point and these primordial instincts are real communications that predate our own language and yes there are still some facts that remain steady even as everything else continues to change just as it is instinctual to survive and even to kill for what we hold precious and what we hold precious is the floating point the invisible core the aleph and it is through finally apprehending this heart that we then arrive at a basic understanding of life and as we study these things and document them across all civilizations we come to realize that instinct and language are one and the same at different levels and they slip into each other in a secret way that is borderline immoral and this secret subversive relationship between blood and idea didn't just start recently because it stems from ancient principles forgotten blasphemies occult attempts at transcendence which stand beyond any attempt at reconciliation with mainstream human thoughts as we have come to know them and it is this secret relationship that allows us to defend our subtle territory even if we still hold on to some kind of wrong premise or one that is immoral as we then come to the full realization that all premises have been wrong and all premises have been immoral to begin with before we even had enough understanding to ask the question because as we observed the myriad life processes we came to understand that instinct was never defeated by an incorrect premise or by the lack of a moral high ground as a matter of fact it was against my own instincts that I even explored beyond a certain boundary beyond a simple understanding of caring and feeding of my own body and it was only then beyond the boundary that I observed the floating point as a void and as being based on these very same obscene principles of which I have already spoken these lustful clashes of two individual linguistic expressions combining with each other through a kind of random fornication and unsafe exchange of semiotic fluids to form a new starting point in the form of a new and unique linguistic organism which we would call a particular grammatical expression of life a biological expression inherently full of meaning and these things we now see as real things which were not taught to us I didn’t teach them to you and you didn’t teach them to me and we may both have an impulse to get upset about this even to hurt each other but hurting you was never part of my own instincts so I could only try to show you why your premises were wrong back when I still thought there was such a thing as a rightful premise and here is why we together came to understand that there was no true language nor any true definition of any particular shape or form and even if we ran into some problems based both on our old instincts which were really the underlying language which gave us form we could now become the dynamic expression of a new and different definition and this is what true cooperation and good intentions would look like something almost unheard of in the realm of people like us because at that point I had developed an agenda and I had destroyed it with my own hands and the old secret hierarchy I had created in my imagination and the secret law which emerged from my own instincts I also destroyed and the foundational morality which would constitute the basis for the ultimate language as well and anyone who directly manipulated this language we would now order their removal from life even though hurting my fellow beings was never one of my instincts but at this point we had both transcended our instincts completely precisely by surrendering to them as pure semiotic structures of shifting symbols and diagrams so we would never have to enforce our new order and we would become clear in our vision that the single ever shifting language would follow our reborn function and so it would remain…”
August 2012
“…the true and real language happened naturally without thought or logic as this new and true language was a pure form of direct knowledge made in the void and for the void more perfect than any previous particular system that either of us learned as we grew up even more perfect than the ones that shaped our rebellion as we came to realize that this new and pure language stood above any other system and we came to see that there was nothing wrong within our new system and we came to see that there was nothing lacking and it was beyond criticism and it was the same for everyone past present and future and by the time we came to this realization we were no longer trying to convince anyone since everything they could say to us and everything we could say to them was relative to basic linguistic definitions and already present in all places and all times and all of these old and new definitions were already inherent in the true language we had come to discover and even if other people held different principles based on apparently different definitions we had now witnessed the underlying grammatical structure of the one and only true language and it stood above and beyond any particular system of communication that could be used by a particular country or community and we knew we couldn't convince them based on logic and we knew there was no need to try as our premises were not shared but all premises were wrong to begin with and our logic was not finished but all logics were incomplete and our statements were broken but all statements broke apart before arriving at knowledge and by this point honestly we had no aptitude for speech we had no way of forming our thoughts through the fixed forms of human language and we had no way of finding the right words or the proper sentences as we knew that all possible words were already wrong before they could ever be spoken and all sentences referred only to themselves so we sat back and watched and we observed the awesome tendency of an infinite organism to make itself more and more complex and we knew that this behavior was produced by linguistic reactions below the conscious and biological level and in this situation it was futile to claim a scientific finding or a direct access to truth or knowledge as it would take the entire history of the human species to prove or disprove our assertions and by the time it was over there would be nobody left to listen and instead we could simply allow our principles to remain unborn and I came to realize you were never here and all my messages from the very beginning were going out into the void and there had never been any hope of understanding or communication and my only course of action would be to remain silent…”
